Pain

[calissa]

It has been somewhat of a difficult week. I have been dealing with what feels like some inflammation in my arms and pain levels have been high. It flared up on Sunday night and I spent most of Monday in utter frustration at my inability to do anything useful. Perhaps one thing I achieved was a renewed appreciation of the spoons analogy. I was completely exhausted by the end of Monday just from dealing with the pain.

Fortunately, the inflammation seems to have eased a bit every day and yesterday I was almost back to normal. It still tends to flare up a bit at night and whenever I shower, though, so I am doing my best to be careful.

The truth is that I've never been very good at taking care of my body; I tend to prefer living in my head. I guess that on some level I feel like I deserve the pain for not doing a better job of looking after myself. Healing--on all levels--seems like an overwhelming and long-term task.

Comments

[sidheblessed]

Hope the pain has lessened and you're feeling better. It's so frustrating when pain keeps us from doing the things we want, even something as simple as going about our day without feeling exhausted.

I think most people struggle with looking after themselves from time to time. As a fellow "living in the head" type I know I struggle with it. It's definitely a long-term task and I agree it can be absolutely overwhelming at times.

[calissa]

It comes and it goes, though is always worse at night and after showering. I was hurting a fair bit after our afternoon tea on Saturday.